Growing Up Geeky: Am I going to regret this?

For Carina's birthday last week we went to Enchanted Village and opened presents with my parents. On Christmas day {after Christmas was celebrated, of course} we had a small celebration with M's family during which Carina tried cake for the first time. Other than sticking her finger in the frosting and attempting to paint her face with it, she really wasn't all that interested in it. So, it's not like her birthday wasn't celebrated at all. On two separate occasions we toasted to her {with adult beverages} and sang Happy Birthday.

With that said, I am now going to confess ::breathe in:: that I canceled her big Winter ONEderland First Birthday Party before I even started planning it. ::breathe out::

And I feel awful about it. I see almost every Mom I know planning these amazing parties with creative themes, extravagant decorations, mouth watering food, fun games, and more. I thought I would be one of those Moms. I created an entire Pinterest board devoted to ideas for Carina's party. I thought I would relish the planning and look forward to picking out special things with which to adorn our new home. But when it came time to actually start the planning, I found that I just...couldn't...do it.

So the party is off. No adorable pink penguins or a perfect igloo cake. No polar bear cake pops or snow flake cookies. And you know what? I'm okay with it.

We just moved. Then we spent almost 2 weeks away from home visiting family. I've had so many other things on my mind...a grandiose and {likely} expensive party just doesn't fit in right now. We're still unpacking, money is tight, we had two small family celebrations, and Carina won't know the difference at this age.

My only worry is that I might regret it in the future.